THIS IS NOW

Speechless Wordless I have been
Regarding the past 3 weeks of my life
In this time the following things have happened:

I have adventured to many forests, fields, lakes and beaches, all for the sake of magic, fellowship, creativity, passion, connection, expansion, network, divinity, maturity, mojo, kink, play lalallaalallaouch!
I am now married, not just in the spiritual and legal sense, but in the social sense as well. Carlos and I had a public, family-oriented ritual that ROCKED HELLYEAH!
Many blessings have been bestowed oh Hail MARY!
Life brings such wonders
I am in so much love with so many people right now
I am a giant ball of love
that is not to say that I do not feel the constant buzz of suffering and pain that is the mark of humanity
I can feel it all at once
I'm very very good at multitasking
Especially sensual multitasking
Bring it on
OH HEAVEN is under our feet as well as over our heads- says Henry David Thoreau
Heaven is in the instant flow of the river of awakening when I gaze into the eyes of a stranger
Heaven is when even the stranger understands what's happening
Heaven is the breath that follows
Heaven is the parting of this union, dissoved into oblivion
Never to exist again
As nothing ever will EVER exist again that has existed NOW
Even if it's OH so close, so similar
ALL IS GONE!

I wrote something this morning, on paper, at Ritual Arts, a place where I work. It's for one of my loves, and oh how I do love this love:
Last Sunday after dawn, after a night of the Sacred Fire, I lay down with him and slipped into the dreamworld
The entire morning I was in the halfdream, halfconscious realm
Flying- Together we were a purple butterfly
He the torso
and I the wings
Just fluttering all morning long
Just joy and freedom
Violet hues
Flapping

Ok- So here's what I actually wrote this morning for the love- Aquarius with an Aquarius moon and an Aquarius Rising
Excuse my exhuberance
For one whose tender nipples take the force of the titans upon them-off into a smattering of ecstasy-I live for this kind of journey-for tearing the mind AWAKE
How grateful I am for your trust, butterfly:

...for the man who courted me with a duel- Paranoid by Black Sabbath...I on the Amazonian Nose Whistle- He on the bass...
ZAKUS

Flashes of familiarity:
A clear vision of your hair,
Long,flowing, silver and gray,
With a few soft strands of black-
But is this the future I see
Repeatedly-
Or is it the past
Returning back to me?
My mind rewinds this memory
In both directions
Simultaneously,
As if this image exists at a point
Where past and present collapse into
One particle of perception, of
Permanent participation.
Because I can re- pre- member,
This ancient wave of timespace functions,
Allowing us to know, to see
That we have manifested our
Non-linear objective
Set within the cycle of death/rebirth,
Just by encountering one-another-as-one-here-now
On Earth

OLO*RA KALIMAYAGAIYEMAYA A*NUT*TU*RA*HU
We come from many waves
upon many waves
from so far
we build a boat
we bend it through the hole in the void
and sail over to itself
singing all the way
making life
here is life
LAMANAHALA
LAMANAHALA
LAMANAHALA
LAMAHA